Mommy 24/7

Sometimes I wish that I could a brief break from Parenthood, nothing too long, maybe 5 minutes so that I can gasp for a little air. Not that I don't love Pig, I can't imagine life without her. I hate not being to wake up to her little smiling face. However, lately the worrying is consuming my every waking minute...with the insomnia I'm experiencing, that is getting to be most of the day.

So Pig's first day of day care was today. Luckily, she spent one week with her Nanas as a transition period. This ended up being a great arrangement because I got to see how Pig handled not being nursed during the day. She was ok...until she got tired, then she became angry square. But at least she was with family members who were willing to hold her as long as necessary.

I spent the weekend getting Pig ready for day care. I felt like it was out back to school shopping. I packed her clothes, bibs, ointment, wipes, and diapers and went shopping for a cooler bag to store her milk and Nuk nipples. We've decided that K will drop Pig off and I will pick her up. I'm glad not to do drop off because I think I'd feel like shit the entire way to work if she cried. Sigh, I miss my baby. I enjoy not being in my pajamas all day but it'll take awhile before I get used to not being with Pig all day.

So here's our schedule from now on!

4:30 am - I wake up and pump
5:00 am - 6:00 am - Get dressed and get my pump and lunch packed
6:00 am - Drive to station and board commuter train
7:00 am - 12:00 pm - Work, work, work
12:00 pm - 1:00 pm - Pump
3:00 pm - Leave work and head to train station
3:30 pm - Board train
4:00 pm - Drive to daycare and pick up Pig
5:00 pm - Nurse Pig
6:00 pm - Dinner!
7:00 pm - Hand Pig over to K and get bottles ready for tomorrow
8:00 pm - Pump, Shower, K puts Pig down for the night
9:00 pm - Sleep, Pig willing!